Tuesday, December 23, 2008


Dear readers,
So I've recently been going through what I call "obstacles"...regardless of my age,or stage in life it is common for most of us to continually have giants we face right?

Not giants as in the football team,Lol but problems and they can come in your Life and can come at you and very hard.

As I am going through these obstacles im also dealing with CHANGE!(thanks obama?) haha...just a little humor.

I've recently been reading a book called "HE MOTIONS" by . Rev.T.D JAKES...although the book is intended to be read by men...it has helped me view certain aspects and view life well how men do I can say...

As I've read and thought really our giants,are killed by right choices,and choices are something one must generally make alone.as the cliche saying goes,they can make you or break you.Many good people are the ones who deal with feeling carcerated at an early age.I too am a victim of that.

Some of us get caught up in those roles that society and culture dress us up in.Some become even uncomfortable with themselves dude to the fact they give into it.
But as the good Lord says we are his children and he created our image in him.We are each imbued with unique gifts, strengths, talents, and worth unlike anyone else.
In the book it mentions 5 steps that really have been helping me through these tough times.
Here they are:

1.Confront what is threatening you: Don't pretend that it will go away just because you don't think you can bear to face it.Don't be intimidated by it just because its bigger then you are.

2.Level what you've learned in the past against what you face in the future: Don't look to be rescued by others or to find a secret somewhere beyond your reach.Recall yesterdays trials and how you've slain giants from your past.

3.Don't let the spectators and speculators break your focus from the real villain: its tempting to look away from the eyes of your problem and seek advice,counsel,and solutions from others.There's always certainly a place for wisdom in your family,friends and colleagues.

4.Never assume a problem is dead just because its dazed: Make sure you kill your giant and don't simply leave him unconscious to return and sneak up on you another day.

5.Use the enemy's sword against him.Kill him with his own sword!: without stooping to unethical practices or immoral behavior,you should be willing to fight with the same intensity level as your opponent.Learn what you can from your enemy and apply it from your weakness.

And to close this thought,always,always persevere toward the vision of what you were made for.

God bless keep reading:)

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

praise is what i do..

its what i do...

throughout my life.and my adolesence i grew up in the church,surrounded by Gods peple you may say.At the young age of 9 years old,i revceived the holy spirit from God.It was as if i were facing God himself telling him how much i love him.At the age of 10 years old i started writing music.No one really knows i guess,its a hidden talent.I have notebooks full of songs that ive written since the tender age of ten,i never really thought of them as songs more of my greatfullness and gratitude towards God himself!...If you ask any of my family members they can probably most certainly inform you on what i do...IM ALWAYS WRITIIIIIING!whether its on a napkin,my sidekick,a gum wrapper im always writtttttiiiiiinnnngg!!

its become a problem:D

well anyways,

i believe my devotion to God is my writing and my voice(that he allowed me to have),

im NOT the the greatest singer in the world or even at my church,hence the fact that the church i congregate at (CC of NC) is overwhelmed with talent and God given ministry,

this 2009,i want to step out of my ordinary self,and give more to God.

For he gave me a ministry and confirmed it in my prayers.

i do not want to let him down,

pray for me and what God has in store for me...

God bless

random express poem no im not emo ok jaja

remember when my last tear fell

you were the cause,i soon healed

three words gently entered serenity

til my last engagement through your presense

words can hurt me so to speak

but the presence of the Lord is greater then your speech


something simple

take a look back,you still happy?enjoy life,set high standards

but please dont make a mochary of your well mannered(sarcasm displayed)self

theyve taught you well,the greater above gave you chances.

you still take them for granted.

i am me,you are you,lets just get along as the scriptures say

yeah with me!

no matter who or what come my way

i am here to stay

faithful,positive,real classy

cliche you may say

but its better then you will ever out it...

goodbyehence the problems between us.

the Lord has a plan and it shall be follwed.

true happiness is coming and so is our saviour.

Friday, October 31, 2008

his glory fills the earth

So, im sitting here in my Ap English class, cold in a skirt freezing it was raining outside, so im all wet:( so I decided to blog since were not doing anything but speak about politics.

Well today was an interesting day let me start off by mentioning my dream.While sleeping I began to dream about the world being viewed in black and white!, I was so confused..in the dream I was asking my parents, "why can't I see color?Do you guys see color?" they replied to me, "yes we do why?" During the dream I began to tremble and ponder and question. "God why can't I see color" he answered me, you will not see color until you do what I have asked of you. I woke up...I gazed at my alarmclock and it was 4:09 a.m. I couldn't go back to sleep, I found myself crying and wondering why I was! I began to pray,and ask God what was the meaning of that dream.
After praying,I began to sing my own song of worship. I believe the Lord gave me a song!...I quickly grabbed my sidekick and began typing the words that began to come to my mind and I felt Gods presense so strongly. Still crying (tears of joy) I began to sing again and type a the same time... here is the song everyone;) its not great but it is what the Lord gave me....it sort of an answer God gave to my prayer:)

Return me to, the love you gave me from before. I instilled this type of worship from my soul.
You died,you rose, you gave a purpose for me to receive.

Forever and ever I will sing,I will shout and seek you Lord. For I know your grace is near I will see you face to face,my Lord. Your everything to me.
//Jesus your everything to me// and your glory fills the earth...

2nd verse:
How amazing is the love,
The love you give to me when everythings undone.You filled my heart with the type of peace, that I longed for sweet as a breeze, you restored my desire and it has abroad.you are my savior and that of more

You came,you died your people turned their heads. But still your love continues to provide and still redeems the man and keeps him alive.

(Back to chorus)

Well its not great,im mean im no Brooke Fraser, or Israel Houghton but its my love song to Jesus! I love you Lord;)
"his glory fills the earth" is the title I guess...
To be continued...

fed up with just being a christian

We are a generation of culture breakers,a generation that is going to unite,and break the power of the culture by the power and demonstration of God.We will declare to this secular culture,We will not accept what this world wants us to tolerate anymore.Success in God it is not measured on what you do,or by what people can see,but by obedience. When you want things to go into prospective, kneel down and with a humble heart let him take control.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008


It is not about the talent,the voice,the dance moves,attitude..its is your measure of faith and the God inside you that must be brought out by someone just glancing at you...-jaz

Saturday, October 18, 2008

self esteem

While growing up one is face with the criticize factor. Criticize factor meaning, you know somebody who just loves to put you down. Now, don't you feel like yelling at that person to back off, but sometimes you feel something inside you stopping you. A little voice telling you to calm down. Some call it a conscience some call it Jiminy cricket, I call that voice God! People who end up in that spiral of shame never really intended to go there in the first place. For example think back to when you were nine or ten, what kind of a person were you? If you were like anything that research shows you were friendly, liked to learn and try new stuff were always in a pretty good mood, sometimes even felt like you can take on the world by yourself. But certainly there came a point to ponder in your life when you began to change a little bit. Like when you worried about how you look or what other people think of you. If so then, you're at the stage in your life when you wonder what you are going to do in life. Most young adults go from not having a care in the world to dramatically worry about superficial stuff. Also, what most of us young adults tend to think is the age old question "Things are different now of days". That is what we say to our elders, in reality we could learn a lot from our elders. The advice that is learned from our elders is much more satisfying than the superficial stuff magazines tell us. Point taken; do not let anyone put you down for no apparent reason. Giving into low self-esteem means that you are living in fear. God is so great that he spoils us to the t! Speak to the lord on one- to one bases.

do it like Jesus:)

Sweet words are easy to say, Sweet things are easy to buy, But sweet people are difficult to find. Life ends when you stop dreaming, Hope ends when you stop believing, Love ends when you stop caring, it ends when you stop sharing. To love without condition, To talk without intention, To give without reason, And to care without expectation

thoughts about what's been going on..

The enemy can attack u even by someone else attitude,
When the devil does not use what he always hurts u with he'll find something else...ur faith is ur spear.
If he attacks u and conquers now then imagine 20 years from now...ur ministry is always in u and no matter the situation he is your redeemer. With ur prayer it creates war in hell. The enemy trembles at the sound of worship. He will seek you through. As cliche as you believe it may sound the truth of the matter is your ministering just by walking down the street. We are our own substantial minister. With us keeping a peaceful and positive attitude and a wholesome heart. It should be automatically a correspondent to Gods blessings.He is all mighty and chooses his kingdom wisely. It is up to you to choose the way you live.Nothing and no one shall separate you from the love of God. Even if we stumble across this timeline we call life(refer to Romans 8:37-39).For our life experiences are nearly a thing in the past that may help us succeed in Christ or bring us down.Remember it is OUR OWN DECISION to choose to serve the Lord. Also remember that we are not "spies" of God,we have no business eavesdropping on our peers lives,or judging them at that matter. Also we are not chameleons, we don't have to blend in to the different types of "rolemodels" of this so called "socialite" society. Honestly, one may say that they love Jesus but only he has the right to judge you. People who take note on your life and label and stereotype you by your past or even your present lifestyle have no admittance in your walk with God.(refer to Romans 8:15-18) His love is everlasting and amazing, amen -jaz apodaca (10-17-08)
Success in God is not measured on what you do, or by what people see, but by obedience.

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