Lejos de tí...

Quedarme en silencio, es lo más dificíl. Me perdí, y fue lo peor. Me duele dejar de ser la que soy.
Me duele mi alma a ser el que tragarme mi orgullo e ir solo. Tengo gravemente pensándo mucho en el proceso. Lo quiero todo. Dios mismo se acercó a los dos. ¿Vale la pena la espera? ¿Puedes contar hasta 55 otra vez? Sé que la vida es un juego, pero vamos a ganar. Permite no dejar que el color de nuestro mundo a su vez simple en blanco y negro. Estoy esperando pacientemente tú llegada. El amor tiene vino a nuestras vidas. Estoy agradecida siempre por la sonrisa que siempre das. Yo no soy la más fácil de tratar, pero te preocupas de todos modos. Te amo.

My "daughter"

Today was one of the worst twenty minutes of pain i have ever experienced. I came home to find that my Dog was gone!!! Turns out her chain got loose and she escaped or some sort. My brother and Dad drove around the area looking for her,while i shouted her name to see if she'd come back. Twenty minutes later she came running towards me, i was so relieved i literally felt like my heart sank, i love her as if she were my own daughter. She is now safe and sound at home...and GROUNDED! LOL
 Here are some photos of my mischevous puppy, Leylah "Little Bombs" Apodaca.

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I want to be afraid,but for some reason I'm peaceful. I can't just worry and cry, I smile in the midst of adversity. Thoughts ponder my head to want to wonder,whats going to happen next. Instead a cheerfulness comes upon me. All I know is I am patiently waiting as to what is going to happen. Will I ever see the end result?

Jaz

Touched my heart...

My mind opened up after reading this,made me realize a lot !

Matthew 5:8-9, 11-14 MSG "You're blessed when you get your inside world-your mind and heart-put right. Then you can see God in the outside world. "You're blessed when you can show people how to cooperate instead of compete or fight. That's when you discover who you really are, and your place in God's family. "Not only that-count yourselves blessed every time people put you down or throw you out or speak lies about you to discredit me. What it means is that the truth is too close for comfort and they are uncomfortable. You can be glad when that happens-give a cheer, even!-for though they don't like it, I do! And all heaven applauds. And know that you are in good company. My prophets and witnesses have always gotten into this kind of trouble. "Let me tell you why you are here. You're here to be salt-seasoning that brings out the God-flavors of this earth. If you lose your saltiness, how will people taste godliness? You've lost your usefulness and will end up in the garbage. "Here's another way to put it: You're here to be light, bringing out the God-colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We're going public with this, as public as a city on a hill.

De aquel entonces...

Summer days are the best. We got the best out of the sunshine. I can truly say I love San Diego. The SD county fair with my loves was much needed.

Del Mar,CA I love you.

Awaken by a beautiful love...

Hello everyone,
This morning I was awaken by a soft voice, I listened. I love that my God is a gentleman and will never mistreat me,with the simplest measures he captivates my attention. Well mannered is our father,he knows how to put a smile on my face. In my dreams I think and wonder of heaven,and what a priviledge it would be to one day be face to face with our creator. With that said,this morning I also received my "Daily Bible Verse" from my Daily App on my cellphone...it was 1 corinthians 2:9 .
I decided to read the full chapter and wow,am I amazed. The whole chapter is preety self explanitory! :)
If you do read it,i recommend you reading the message version. If you dont have a hands on message bible there are several online options you may choose from,my favorite happens to be Biblegateway.com. You can read it in any version,language etc.
Back to the chapter I have read, one part in particular has stood out :)
"1 Corinthians 2:8-13 MSG

The experts of our day haven't a clue about what this eternal plan is. If they had, they wouldn't have killed the Master of the God-designed life on a cross. That's why we have this Scripture text: No one's ever seen or heard anything like this, Never so much as imagined anything quite like it-What God has arranged for those who love him. But you've seen and heard it because God by his Spirit has brought it all out into the open before you. Who ever knows what you're thinking and planning except you yourself? The same with God-except that he not only knows what he's thinking, but he lets us in on it. God offers a full report on the gifts of life and salvation that he is giving us. We don't have to rely on the world's guesses and opinions. We didn't learn this by reading books or going to school; we learned it from God, who taught us person-to-person through Jesus, and we're passing it on to you in the same firsthand, personal way."

Our God is so well mannered and I hope to one day see his face. My love for him will never be taken.

Hope you all have a great rest of the week!
- Jaz

REALIZATION

Has anyone ever experienced the "superheroe" syndrom in life? At this young age, i've experienced it before. You know when the prayers start
becoming petitions, rather than a conversation with God, they become a list of "wants, and "ill you's"?
You know what i mean, the "Will you help me with this God?" type of prayers...or even the mindset of being so involved in church and/or in your own personal life that you begin to think and act as if you can handle things on your own, at your own pace.

If experiencing that ,there should come a time that you should slow down and realize, YOU ARE NOT ALONE IN LIFE. Truth is no matter what situation surpasses, God knows what will and is to come. Before any of us were created he planned out our lives and knew what our faults would be. There is nothing you can accomplish without God, he is the provider that provides you with the strength to do so.

When you begin to feel a sort of selfish feeling, it is normal because we are human and our flesh often leads us to decisions that can harm us. But you have to recognize the selfishness and the fact that you need your God ,and if you do that is a good sign, a great one at that! Gods guidance is the best you will ever have, but one should always cherish this.

As often as we might think,that we cannt do something, the fact of the matter is God has great faith in us, more than we have in ourselves. He sees the good in us, the greatness in us because we were made to follow his steps. We are to be Christ-like.

When first making a decision to be baptized under Jesus Christ , i made a pact to always place him first in my life. At the tender age of 14 i made that decision and i am a living testimony of a God fearing person. Its the tough times,and selfish moments that God placed in my life who made me who i Am today. I have learned to Trust in God and rely on his love and under his authority.
He has the final say in life, not man.
Psalm 55:22 (The Message)

22-23 Pile your troubles on God's shoulders—
he'll carry your load, he'll help you out.
He'll never let good people
topple into ruin.
But you, God, will throw the others
into a muddy bog,
Cut the lifespan of assassins
and traitors in half.

And I trust in you.

Forgiveness,Trust,Justice,Love,Faithfullness,Desire,Dreams, Salvation,Divine Purpose....The list can go on and on about how i describe my God.

The point is he is a just and fair God, one should fear only him! He is jealous for his child, and if you have been called and are in anyway dealing with discouragement, selfishness, The "Superheroe" syndrom ...STOP AND THINK LONG AND HARD. He hears our every thought before we think it. He loves us so....and as long as God grants me the gif of life i will live to serve him. Our God is great,holy and mighty. Theres nothing i want more than to live by his side. You are all beautiful,let his love shine through you each day.

Before i conclude my rather long ramblings, i end with my favorite verse...the verse that is engraved in my heart and thoughts whenever i think of his mercy and grace.

Philippians 3:10 (The Message)

10-11I gave up all that inferior stuff so I could know Christ personally, experience his resurrection power, be a partner in his suffering, and go all the way with him to death itself. If there was any way to get in on the resurrection from the dead, I wanted to do it.

Love and happiness, Jazapo